Some of this might be too much information for you people but... I don't really care. My mind is putting me in a very depressed mood and I really need something to focus on other than that...

1. [ ] Smoked
2. [x] Drank alcohol
3. [x] Cried when someone died [of course... my heart may be closed but I still have one]
4. [ ] Been drunk
5. [x] Had sex [I've had sex for the first time... I guess I don't have to worry about who it's with now...]
6. [ ] Been to a concert
7. [x] Gotten/given a hand job
8. [x] Gotten/given a blow job
9. [ ] Been verbally/sexually harassed
10. [ ] Verbally/sexually harassed somebody

11. [x] Felt someone up and/or been felt up
12. [x] Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
13. [x] Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before. [And regretted it...]
14. [x] Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend [And regretted that I wasn't good enough...]
15. [ ] Been to prom.
16. [x] Cried at school [In the middle of class... proceeded to tare my wrists apart with my own nails...]
17. [x] Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.
18. [ ] Went streaking
19. [ ] Given or received a lap dance.
20. [x] Had someone of the opposite sex in your room


21. [x] Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over
22. [x] Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house
23. [ ] Kissed a stranger
24. [ ] Hugged a stranger
25. [ ] Went scuba diving
26. [ ] Driven a car
27. [x] Gotten an x-ray
28. [ ] Hit by a car
29. [ ] Had a party
30. [ ] Done serious drugs

31. [x] Played strip poker/darts/basketball [I guess he just wanted to see me without my shirt on... too bad he kept losing]
32. [ ] Got paid to strip for someone
33. [ ] Run away from home.
34. [ ] Broken a bone.
35. [x] Eaten sushi [disgusting shit...]
36. [ ] Bought porn
37. [x] Watched porn
38. [x] Made porn
39. [x] Had a crush on someone of the same sex
40. [x] Been in love [who hasn't...?]


41. [x] French kissed [A wonderful way to show affection... too bad I won't get affection like that in a long time...]
42. [x] Laughed so hard you cried
43. [x] Cried yourself to sleep [I guess when you have a broken heart that's what'll happen...]
44. [ ] Laughed yourself to sleep
45. [ ] Stabbed yourself accident
46. [x] Shot a gun
47. [x] Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day
48. [x] Been online for 9 consecutive hours. [I always am... not like I have anything else to do or anyone else to spend time with...]
49. [x] Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours. [Again... I have nothing else to do...]
50. [x] Watched an animal die. [Hit a deer... to end its pain I had to break its neck... too bad I can't end my pain just as easily... wait... I guess I can...]

51. [x] Watched a person die [Right there on the bed in front of me...]
52. [x] Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present. [Twice... the first time the spectator was either half awake or pretending to be asleep... the second I was being kissed by my boyfriend... while being groped and teased by another... I liked it... no wonder I"m a slut...]
53. [ ] Pranked somebody.
54. [ ] Put somebody in the hospital
55. [ ] Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out
56. [x] Kissed somebody of the same sex [If only I could show people that kind of affection again...]
57. [x] Dressed punk [Once...]
58. [x] Dressed goth [Once...]
59. [x] Dressed preppy [Usually did... some of the time]
60. [ ] Been to a motocross race.

61. [x] Avoided somebody [When it hurts too much what else can you do...?]
62. [ ] Been stalked
63. [ ] Stalked someone
64. [ ] Met a celebrity.
65. [x] Played an instrument.
66. [x] Ridden a horse
67. [x] Cut yourself not on purpose [kinda stupid... it's kinda easy to cut yourself on anything]
68. [ ] Bungee jumped.
69. [ ] Ding dong ditched somebody.
70. [ ] Been to a wild party.


71. [x] Got caught stealing something.
72. [x] Kicked/punched a guy in the balls. [I missed... I was aiming for his chin and he stepped forward...]
73. [ ] Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
74. [ ] Gone out with your friend's crush.
75. [ ] Got arrested.
76. [ ] Been pregnant.
77. [ ] Babysat.
78. [x] Been to another country.
79. [ ] Started your house on fire.
80. [x] Had an encounter with a ghost.

81. [ ] Donated your hair to cancer patients.
82. [x] Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
83. [x] Cried over a family member of the opposite sex. [Rest in peace...]
84. [x/ ] Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for 3 months or more. [If online counts... then yes. If only in person... than no more than two weeks]
85. [x] Sat on your butt all day [All I ever do anymore...]
86. [x] Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself
87. [x] Had a job. [Had being the key word]
88. [ ] Gotten cut from a sports team.
89. [x] Been called a whore. [By a few people...]
90. [ ] Danced like a whore.

91. [ ] Been mistaken for a celebrity.
92. [x] Been in a car accident. [Head on colossion... on a mountain nonetheless... Amazing I"m still alive]
93. [x] Been told you have beautiful eyes. [Brown eyes... long eyelashes... people say that all the time]
94. [x] Been told you have beautiful hair. [Jet black... Thick as a garden of weeds...]
95. [ ] Raped somebody.
96. [ ] Danced in the rain.
97. [x] Been rejected. [Who hasn't...?]
98. [ ] Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
99. [x] Punched someone/slapped someone in the face. [Anger is a beautiful thing, is it not? Lets you overcome your limits...]
100. [ ] Been raped.

An eternity alone in the cold embrace of the empty darkness... I guess I can live with that... Whatever I want in exchange for my heart, memories and soul... What I want... Is peace... A day where I can rest and be happy... Nothing to worry me... Nothing to scare me... Nothing to hurt me... Just to be in the embrace of someone who truly loves me... But I guess... That if I trade those in, it's just a lie... But... I'll be happy... Even if it is just a lie, I can live happily in a lie for eternity... I guess I can live with that... Eternity isn't that long...